Innervated/Enervated

Perhaps it's done already, perhaps they have said me already, perhaps they have carried me to the threshold of my story, before the door that opens on my story, that would surprise me,
if it opens, it will be I, it will be the silence, where I am, I don't know, I'll never know, in the silence you don't know, you must go on, I can't go on, I'll go on.

Nothin'. A handful of nothin'. You stupid mullet head. He beat you with nothin'. Just like today when he kept comin' back at me - with nothin'.

innervate means 'supply with manic, nervous energy' (Latin in- 'in' and nervus 'vigor, energy')

enervate means 'drain or weaken the energy of' (Latin enervare- 'weaken by extraction of the sinews')